It’s crazy how much drama is arising at school just because of that one night.
Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a C. You give 110% to someone in a relationship who only gives 40%. You’re there for a best friend at 3:00am and the next day they don’t pick up their phone. It seems like you’re giving everyone everything and they’re just walking away with it.
this times a fucking thousand
This this this. Ugh.
It was surprising because only the period before in class was I talking to a friend about friendships and my failed ones, which included ours.
I saw someone I didn’t expect I would see (yesterday), a part of me twisted and turned. It made me feel like I was in a panic and my friends could read me like a book. They were all telling me to act cool and to breathe and sit down and think about other things, but I was legit about to die. I hadn’t seen her in 2 years. Yes, it’s true that this person meant a lot to me. I didn’t expect to face her again, I didn’t know even whether to say hello. I knew that she knew that I saw her and she knew that I knew that she saw me. We just didn’t end up even greeting each other even though we were less than 2 metres away from each other.
When I saw her, I couldn’t help but think about the past. I know I should be over all our shit by now but they actually meant that much. I hope that maybe when I see her next, we can greet each other without any hesitance. I’m sorry, when I see her I just can’t help it. Just know that, the only time she came back onto my mind was just that day. I hadn’t thought about her prior to this incident for long time and I was okay.
I guess a part of me is actually slowly forgetting about her.
Anonymous asked: I love you Cindy. <3 Please try not to be sad. We're not in any of the same classes this year but I know we have a good friendship because even if we do not talk every day, it's never awkward and you always make me laugh. hehe
thanks for this, hope i get to know who you are eventually. i’m not very good at being friends with people so i appreciate it.