LOL bball tonight xd.
just came back from bball in springee,
OH how i LOLOL @ sarah’s dad !
he took a shower using hand soap as shampoo and paper towels as a towel and then told us how when we go out into the world we have to use alternatives for our needs HAHA he cracks me up ! yeeah and we were gonna call into syn and shout and sing but then we all chickened and cbf xd.
oh and we re-celebrated chris birthday like last year, ice cream cake cept we had no gummy bears but we ate it in a cup LOL
i hate this feeling, the feeling of emptiness. that feeling you get when your friend forgets about you or acts different now a days or like when you see the guy you like with another girl, happy and everything. i hate it, you might hate it too. it’s a feeling of mixed emotions, a feeling that makes you want to give up because you can’t stand the pain anymore. the feeling that you’re not even worth it anymore, you’re nothing now. it makes you paranoid, makes all these thoughts run through your head ‘they don’t care anymore’ ‘they’re just pretending’ and more. the things you want to do because of this feeling, scream, cry, punch, die. but that’s not all, it’s a feeling of stupidity too..why are you trying so hard for that person, wondering if they’re worth all your effort, but are they really? these feelings emotions, is what im going through and it’s killing me slowly one by one.
so basically me and michelle went to tutor while donna sarah dom carmen daniel went to go buy chris’ present. after tutor michelle’s mum came pick us up and we drove to dandy plaza to pick them up cept for carmen cos she went home. after that we went back to the trannys house and chilled. me sarah daniel michelle and sorta dom watched IP MAN 2. dude it was epic shit…wing chun LOL yeah and then straightened our hair etc. then we wrapped vongies present, we put everything into a box and weapped nicepaper newspaper picture some of old lady on it then newspaper our cards and then nice paper LOL fail cos we had no box lid and we had to make our own wrapping paaper with the newspaper. hmm we waited for the trannys mum to get back from buying the CHEEERLEADER jenny maccas.
we got to vongies, pretty much everyone was there, donna me sarah michelle hung in the garage cos they had music speakers and lights and etc.
carmen came, mel came and then danced and did random stuff LOL me sarah dom michelle played tekken cos we were bored. carmen dom left we went down to pump music and do random shiz.
ahh that was pretty much what we did all night cos we didn’t know vongies mazenod friends so we hung in our own homies group. OH wait we found a ball so we tried to do the joey chandler monica thing where you keep chcuking it around without dropping whilst dnm-ing. YEAH then more music and houseshaking stuff and sparkles and then we went home.
aish, you make me feel like shit. it feels asif you’re rubbing in the fact that you have other people in your life and how you don’t need me in your life. it doesn’t even seem like your trying to stop me from walking out of your life, thanks i appreciate your friendship —’ fucking everytime im around you i feel the need to be paranoid incase i do or say something wrong and then your kit gonna judge me or be like WTF. sometimes you act mean as a joke but you don’t get how i feel it’s like payback now. *sigh im trying my hardest here, can you atleast try in return or just tell me ‘i don’t care about this friendship’ so i can fckn stop stressing and being sad cos of you. i want to be but only if you let me…i feel asif you’re pushing me away or im annoying you and yeah i understand you need space, but you know what?! im scared..scared that after awhile we’ll never talk again or barely and that thoughts hurts whilst scares me. im sorry for my mistakes in the past and please don’t use that against us.
LOOOOOOOOOOL i just remembered how our class’ art teacher was fckn gay cos she was tight and was always like ‘be quiet, stop talking..etc.’ and me and rinita use to walk around with paint trays and paintbrushes and throw paint at her back [she always wore a white coat like those science ones] and see who could make the biggest blotch LOL ! it was hilarious..cos our whole class was like WTF ! hahaha yeeeah so her back was covered in different colours..oh and how when we got to use the deck area, we use to paint the tables and the wood decking and she caught us once and she was like ‘BLAH BLAH CLEAN THIS ALL UP IMMEDIATELY GIRL’ and like LOL gg to us..and fucking lol at the time when i was outside and she’s like ‘are you in this class?’ and i was like ‘no?’ and she’s like then leave here now. and i’m like LOL *walks away* comes back 10 minutes later. ‘show me your art work [blotches of colours LOL !].’ and im like WTF ! shit memory much :/..hmm OH MY FUCKING GOD LOL ! I JUST REMEMBER THE LOL-EST THING, we use to steal from art cos it had good supplies..our whole class stole something each cept for the nerd..we use to steal so much colour paper each person had like a whole stack of paper each and textas and permanent markers and paint..and paintbrushes and so much shit its funny..oh and she started noticing towards the end of the year so she checked us before we left every class LOL ! but we stashed it in our body..yeah LOL
oh yeah shit man..once her hair went in the paint on her back and we were like FUCK ! ING LOL !
sorry for this really pointless post, i just felt like reminiscing.
Graduated High School. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time without sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level course. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).} Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane. Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. Been sailing. Cut yourself. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. (replaced) Shoplifted something. Been to jail. Dangerously close to being in jail. Had detention. Skipped school. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country. Dropped out of school. Been in a mental hospital. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary. Fired a gun. Gambled in a casino Had a yard sale. Had a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Taken a lie detector test. Swam with dolphins. Gone to sea world. Voted for someone on a reality TV show. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you couldn’t have. Wondered about your sexuality. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Seen the Washington Monument. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. Overdosed. Had a drug or alcohol problem. Been in a fist fight. Had a hamster. Petted a wild animal. Used a credit card. Gone surfing in California. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. (the teacher like cbfed doing report correctly.) Been on the Honor Roll. Known someone with HIV or AIDS. Taken pictures with a webcam. Started a fire. (it got put out LOL !) Gotten caught having a party while parents were gone away.