*THE SAD LIFE OF CINDY HUA

LOL bball tonight xd. just came back from bball in springee, OH how i LOLOL @ sarah’s dad ! he took a shower using hand soap as shampoo and paper towels as a towel and then told us how when we go out into the world we have to use alternatives for our needs HAHA he cracks me up ! yeeah and we were gonna call into syn and shout and sing but then we all chickened and cbf xd.

oh and we re-celebrated chris birthday like last year, ice cream cake cept we had no gummy bears but we ate it in a cup LOL

yuuh it was a good night (:

i think im getting sick ); maybe cos i haven’t been sleeping enough LOL i should really go sleep now but it’s day time —’ 6 o’clock ! waaah x.x’ gooodnight/morning.

FUCK OFF, YOU’RE SO ANNOYING SERIOUSLY.

WHO CAN I FUCKING TRUST NOW, WHEN YOU LIE STRAIGHT TO MY FACE ? WHEN YOU ACT LIKE YOU DIDN’T DO JACK SHIT. FUCKEN HELL.

i hate this feeling, the feeling of emptiness. that feeling you get when your friend forgets about you or acts different now a days or like when you see the guy you like with another girl, happy and everything. i hate it, you might hate it too. it’s a feeling of mixed emotions, a feeling that makes you want to give up because you can’t stand the pain anymore. the feeling that you’re not even worth it anymore, you’re nothing now. it makes you paranoid, makes all these thoughts run through your head ‘they don’t care anymore’ ‘they’re just pretending’ and more. the things you want to do because of this feeling, scream, cry, punch, die. but that’s not all, it’s a feeling of stupidity too..why are you trying so hard for that person, wondering if they’re worth all your effort, but are they really? these feelings emotions, is what im going through and it’s killing me slowly one by one.

so basically me and michelle went to tutor while donna sarah dom carmen daniel went to go buy chris’ present. after tutor michelle’s mum came pick us up and we drove to dandy plaza to pick them up cept for carmen cos she went home. after that we went back to the trannys house and chilled. me sarah daniel michelle and sorta dom watched IP MAN 2. dude it was epic shit…wing chun LOL yeah and then straightened our hair etc. then we wrapped vongies present, we put everything into a box and weapped nicepaper newspaper picture some of old lady on it then newspaper our cards and then nice paper LOL fail cos we had no box lid and we had to make our own wrapping paaper with the newspaper. hmm we waited for the trannys mum to get back from buying the CHEEERLEADER jenny maccas.

we got to vongies, pretty much everyone was there, donna me sarah michelle hung in the garage cos they had music speakers and lights and etc.

carmen came, mel came and then danced and did random stuff LOL me sarah dom michelle played tekken cos we were bored. carmen dom left we went down to pump music and do random shiz.

ahh that was pretty much what we did all night cos we didn’t know vongies mazenod friends so we hung in our own homies group. OH wait we found a ball so we tried to do the joey chandler monica thing where you keep chcuking it around without dropping whilst dnm-ing. YEAH then more music and houseshaking stuff and sparkles and then we went home.

man took ages to write LOL

it waz a goodz nightz (:

aish, you make me feel like shit. it feels asif you’re rubbing in the fact that you have other people in your life and how you don’t need me in your life. it doesn’t even seem like your trying to stop me from walking out of your life, thanks i appreciate your friendship —’ fucking everytime im around you i feel the need to be paranoid incase i do or say something wrong and then your kit gonna judge me or be like WTF. sometimes you act mean as a joke but you don’t get how i feel it’s like payback now. *sigh im trying my hardest here, can you atleast try in return or just tell me ‘i don’t care about this friendship’ so i can fckn stop stressing and being sad cos of you. i want to be but only if you let me…i feel asif you’re pushing me away or im annoying you and yeah i understand you need space, but you know what?! im scared..scared that after awhile we’ll never talk again or barely and that thoughts hurts whilst scares me. im sorry for my mistakes in the past and please don’t use that against us.

ignore if you please sorry tblrs

oh you’re a really good friend. fckn diu

yeah it was LOL blog later cbf now.

humanities is boring zzzzzzzzz..